I have to go to California in a couple weeks for something... i am so excited! i cant wait to see my family.. i feel so distant from them.. well i literally am but still.
I need some mama time.
I have been feeling lonely lately.. which is normal being away from everything you have ever known.. it sucks having to work everyday and then go to school on top of that.. today was my off day but it wasnt really one at all. I need rest... not just an off day or whatnot but rest. I feel alone right now. I cant just call my mom, brother or sister into my room to keep me company all i have is God. Which i am not complaining about i just wished i lived closer to my family. I wish i could go back to CA and get an apartment but Lord knows that could never happen financially. So i am stuck here.
In a way i do want to move back home just so i can see my brother and sisters grow up.. i feel very left out of their lives right now.. i know they are teenagers and dont want to call their big sister but i wish i could see them everyday like i used to. We will see what this next trip is like to determine my further choices. lol.
I love having Jasper with me though.. he keeps me company and is so very loving.. God sent him to me at the right time.
I love fall but this southern downpour needs to go!
later ill post a happier blog when its not raining.
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